We've made a decision....

So, last night noah and i decided we are "officially" trying to get pregnant!!!! (of course immediately following this exciting and memorable decision, we got into one of the biggest-if not the biggest-fight of our marriage over the STUPIDEST thing-but that's how it flows i guess....)

but yes-we are now TRYING to get pregnant!!!! i am so excited!! i'm a little scared. i really don't want to miscarry again because the times that i have, even though we weren't trying, it was really hard for me. but i'm trying not to focus on that fear. it is just so different this time around. last time i was just miserable from the moment i found out on.....all i wanted to do was eat and cry and hate life. but this time, having arie now and knowing what a blessing she is-i am just SO EXCITED!!!! i feel like i can barely contain myself. i know it will most likely take 3-6 months if not longer to get pregnant because the data shows you drastically slow down in your baby making ability once you hit age 25, and as much as i know that i am like DYING to be pregnant this month!! 8)

it's stupid and i feel like a big loser and idiot for being so happy about it, but i am. i think i'm mostly excited because even from making the decision on, this is just such a difference experience than with arie. i have health insurance this time, we're bringing in more than $12,000/year combined, we'll both be done or at least almost done with our masters by the time this one comes around, we're in a home that we love and don't plan on moving out of for some time, we are happy with were we are at in life, just soooooo many differences!! my biggest thing is i am COMMITTED to doing this pregnancy healthy. last time i made efforts to be healthy while i carried arie, but honestly, i was just so depressed and unhappy about the situation that i ate wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to much (and gained 80 pounds as a result!!) and i barely exercised. i've committed this time around to getting up every morning, except for saturday, at 6 to run (which i've already started so that hopefully by the time i get preggers the morning run will be a routine since i'm used to doing it at night) and i'm going to eat healthy. i am NOT going to gain more than the appropriate amount of weight this time.......

the only annoying thing is i was hoping to be back to what i looked like before i had arie before i got pregnant with the next one, but honestly i think i would need at least another year to do that because of how unhealthy i was the first time around and i don't want there to be that big of an age difference in the kids. especially since noah right now only wants two (let's all try to get him to change his mind on that, okay??!!) i mean, i'm back to my prepregnancy weight right now, but my body just doesn't look the same, you know?? things are just......wider......or something?? i don't know how to describe it, but i think if you've had kids you know what i mean.....unless you are one of those people who actually look better after having kids-in which case, please stop reading this blog immediately and understand no matter how nice i am to you in person that i hate you.........but yeah, that is the only thing i wish could be different, but i guess i should just be happy that i am back to my prepregnancy weight and pant size, which some woman never make it back to and i am still young enough that after this next baby i should have something left of a metabolism to get back to where i used to be somewhat quickly. i guess that's the one nice thing about noah only wanting two kids. after this one, i'll be done and still under 30 so i will be able (*hopefully*) to still get my bold body shape back.....we'll see though. i guess it's a worthy cause though. if you're gonna lose your body for anything, might as well be for a baby!!

so, names as of right now (and VERY subject to change) are Noah Justus Glass for a boy, but my mom and sister absolutely HATE this name, so we're trying to come up with alternatives. if we named him Noah Justus, we would call him Justus.....just trying to keep the Glass tradition of naming the first son after the father and calling him by his middle name.......and then for a girl, we REALLY REALLY like Eden Kyrie Glass, but now a friend of a friend is naming her daughter Eden and it just sucks because as much as i don't know this person very well, i'm really close to her family and a lot of my friends are close to her so the name will always be compared.....but i love the name Eden. and then our second choice as of right now for a girl is Juno Kyrie Glass. the Kyrie is trying to combine Kara and Lee into a middle name, so i think that will stay no matter what.....if anyone has any good suggestions, let me know!!

i'll keep you updated on the baby making front as we progress..........