My Little Peanut

So we are OFFICIALLY telling everyone now, we're PREGGERS!! It's very exciting!! I had my first ultrasound today and it was pretty cool. Last time around, I didn't even get to see a doctor until my second trimester because I didn't have insurance and my job didn't offer it, so I had to apply for the state insurance and that takes forever!! But, this time, I got an ultrasound at 7.5 weeks. They were afraid that I was pregnant with twins because I guess a lot of my symptoms are in concordance with having twins (Noah and I are both fraternal twins whose moms used no fertility drugs-i.e. it runs in our families, I got an incredibly early positive result, I'm measuring larger-although I've gained no weight yet-than I should be, I've been VERY sick and had very extreme symptoms, etc.) so they did some tests and then finally asked for an ultrasound just to confirm. ONLY ONE BABY!! I can't say I'm honestly disappointed. I would love to have twins, but I've seen what it can do to a body and after having to carry one baby almost to term, I can't imagine carrying two!! But since Noah is only on board for this last pregnancy, it would have been nice to get two babies out of it!! 8)

But yeah, in the ultrasound, the technician showed me the baby's heart beat. It was so cool!! Last time, I was too far along by the ultrasound to see that and it was like a little hummingbird heartbeat, SO FAST, SO STRONG. and the heart takes up like 1/4 of its body. It's really weird too that it already has like a distinct head and body. Even little eye sockets were there. It's just really special. Last time in Arie's first ultrasound I thought she looked like one of those decrepit baby birds who come out of their eggs too soon, so I called her baby bird right up until we had her. This one I think looks like a peanut, so I'm calling it peanut. I love it. It's really weird. Just so different from with Arie. I don't know if it's choosing to be pregnant this time around, or just knowing what will come for it, but I feel so much more connected to it!!

I can't decide though if I want a boy or a girl. Since I can't convince Noah for more than two kids, I feel kind of like I want another girl so that she and Arie can be close, but then I think I will always wonder what it would have been like to have a boy?? Plus there are tons of people I know who have a boy and a girl close together and are best of friends......So who knows. I feel like we're gonna have a boy just because we have no idea what to name the boy and we have several names for the girl. We had originally planned on Eden Kyrie Glass, but a friend of my friends is now having a girl (before me) and she's naming her Eden, so that is out. Then there Bella Kyrie Glass and Idina Kyrie Glass. We're leaning more towards Idina right now than anything else. And then for the boy, we are not incredibly attached to any of these names, but there is Noah Justus Glass (he'd go by Justus, but my mom and sister hate this name, so it's hard to want to use it!!) and then Grayson Keiffa Glass (but his initials would be G.G. and we call Noah's mom GiGi as her grandmother name, so I think that's a little weird) and then we have Knole Grayson Glass.....but who knows???? If anyone has suggestions, I'm more than open to them!!

Well, I have to go to bed now, it's been a long emotional day. But a happy one!! Please keep us and our newest little one in your prayers!!!!

this whole trying this is hard

it's hard to try to get pregnant. with arie we didn't even have to worry about it. it just happened.... but with this we have to figure out how everything works. it's just so much more complicated. i have to start taking prenatal vitamins and figure out when i'm ovulating and work with our schedule and try to figure out when i would be due based on when i would get pregnant and take care of arie who is teething.......man.......it's just one thing after another. the more i research the more i find i need to do. i feel like i just shouldn't research anymore, but honestly i can't help myself!! i just really want to know as much as i can so i can succeed at this. it's hard to think we might have to be in this state of anticipation for over a year.....and even harder to think we might get pregnant sooner than that and have a miscarriage. i just wish it was much easier than this, but i guess everything worth having is worth working for........but man i wish it was easy!!!!

in other news, i started prenatal vitamins today!! still taking my regular calcium and fiber, but switched from multivitamins to prenatal. hopefully now people don't raid our medicine cabinet and constantly think i'm pregnant!! 8)

but i have to go get ready for bed. i was just feeling overwhelmed by all the work that is involved in this that i felt the need to vent......here's to hoping we are one of those incredibly blessed people who get knocked up right off the bat!! i would love it if we could just get pregnant this month and have a healthy pregnancy!!

We've made a decision....

So, last night noah and i decided we are "officially" trying to get pregnant!!!! (of course immediately following this exciting and memorable decision, we got into one of the biggest-if not the biggest-fight of our marriage over the STUPIDEST thing-but that's how it flows i guess....)

but yes-we are now TRYING to get pregnant!!!! i am so excited!! i'm a little scared. i really don't want to miscarry again because the times that i have, even though we weren't trying, it was really hard for me. but i'm trying not to focus on that fear. it is just so different this time around. last time i was just miserable from the moment i found out on.....all i wanted to do was eat and cry and hate life. but this time, having arie now and knowing what a blessing she is-i am just SO EXCITED!!!! i feel like i can barely contain myself. i know it will most likely take 3-6 months if not longer to get pregnant because the data shows you drastically slow down in your baby making ability once you hit age 25, and as much as i know that i am like DYING to be pregnant this month!! 8)

it's stupid and i feel like a big loser and idiot for being so happy about it, but i am. i think i'm mostly excited because even from making the decision on, this is just such a difference experience than with arie. i have health insurance this time, we're bringing in more than $12,000/year combined, we'll both be done or at least almost done with our masters by the time this one comes around, we're in a home that we love and don't plan on moving out of for some time, we are happy with were we are at in life, just soooooo many differences!! my biggest thing is i am COMMITTED to doing this pregnancy healthy. last time i made efforts to be healthy while i carried arie, but honestly, i was just so depressed and unhappy about the situation that i ate wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to much (and gained 80 pounds as a result!!) and i barely exercised. i've committed this time around to getting up every morning, except for saturday, at 6 to run (which i've already started so that hopefully by the time i get preggers the morning run will be a routine since i'm used to doing it at night) and i'm going to eat healthy. i am NOT going to gain more than the appropriate amount of weight this time.......

the only annoying thing is i was hoping to be back to what i looked like before i had arie before i got pregnant with the next one, but honestly i think i would need at least another year to do that because of how unhealthy i was the first time around and i don't want there to be that big of an age difference in the kids. especially since noah right now only wants two (let's all try to get him to change his mind on that, okay??!!) i mean, i'm back to my prepregnancy weight right now, but my body just doesn't look the same, you know?? things are just......wider......or something?? i don't know how to describe it, but i think if you've had kids you know what i mean.....unless you are one of those people who actually look better after having kids-in which case, please stop reading this blog immediately and understand no matter how nice i am to you in person that i hate you.........but yeah, that is the only thing i wish could be different, but i guess i should just be happy that i am back to my prepregnancy weight and pant size, which some woman never make it back to and i am still young enough that after this next baby i should have something left of a metabolism to get back to where i used to be somewhat quickly. i guess that's the one nice thing about noah only wanting two kids. after this one, i'll be done and still under 30 so i will be able (*hopefully*) to still get my bold body shape back.....we'll see though. i guess it's a worthy cause though. if you're gonna lose your body for anything, might as well be for a baby!!

so, names as of right now (and VERY subject to change) are Noah Justus Glass for a boy, but my mom and sister absolutely HATE this name, so we're trying to come up with alternatives. if we named him Noah Justus, we would call him Justus.....just trying to keep the Glass tradition of naming the first son after the father and calling him by his middle name.......and then for a girl, we REALLY REALLY like Eden Kyrie Glass, but now a friend of a friend is naming her daughter Eden and it just sucks because as much as i don't know this person very well, i'm really close to her family and a lot of my friends are close to her so the name will always be compared.....but i love the name Eden. and then our second choice as of right now for a girl is Juno Kyrie Glass. the Kyrie is trying to combine Kara and Lee into a middle name, so i think that will stay no matter what.....if anyone has any good suggestions, let me know!!

i'll keep you updated on the baby making front as we progress..........

IT'S A GIRL!!!!

(Moved over from previous blog site, date written July 17, 2007)

Can't really write now, but just wanted to let everyone know-it's a girl!! Yay and yay!!!!

20 weeks-half way there!!

(Moved over from previous blog site, date written July 12, 2007)

“By far the most common craving of pregnant women is not to be pregnant.” ~Phyllis Diller

It's amazing to me that I am 20 weeks pregnant. so five and a half months!! i am so stocked to be done with this soon!! although i know that will bring a whole new realm of stresses, i am just ready not to be pregnant anymore. i hate having so many rules. what you should eat, what you shouldn't eat, how much weight you should gain, how much weight you shouldn't gain, how long you should work out, what you should do when it's hot out and the list goes on and on. . . buuuuuuuuuuuut i am half way there!! so exciting! we went to the doctor's today and she said that all is well, the baby's heart rate is good (and it's not dead like i feared last week!!) and my stuff all looks good. she was glad i gained weight. 4 and a half pounds, so less still than i should be but that's not terrible because i might just be a late gainer!!

i don't really have much to write this week and i am bogged down with school work so i can't really write even if i wanted to, but i am soooooo excited that next week i get to go to boston and maine!! i can't wait to see everyone and be on the ocean!!!! i miss the ocean soooo much!!!! i bought a really cute maternity bathing suit (did i tell you this last week??) and i LOVE it, so that is nice at least that i don't have to feel like a huge whale at the beach or pool and have an ugly bathing suit on!!

well, i'm sure i'll write when we get back!! just glad all's well on the baby front!!

oh yeah and we have our ultrasound to find out what the baby is on tuesday, so i will try to write after that!! hasta....

19 weeks

(Moved over from previous blog site, date written July 6, 2007)

“Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”
-Elizabeth Stone


19 whole weeks. exciting exciting!! i'm almost half way there!! although i can't imagine getting another two times bigger!! i had a dentist appointment today and none of them believed i was five months, which i guess is nice because it means comparatively i must be smaller than most people, but for me, it's like i am this huge whale of a person. i think i partly just feel so big because i gained absolutely nothing the first couple of months (like a pound a month through the first four months) and at this point i think i've gained like a pound a week for the past four weeks. i know this is normal and will probably make my doctor really happy-it's just a big jump for me. but i was reading that this is the time when you gain the quickest (not the most-you gain the most in the third trimester and especially the last couple of weeks of pregnancy because the baby gets so big) but these past four weeks i guess you're supposed to gain the quickest because the baby jumps up in weight a ton-it goes from like 2.5 ounces to 7 ounces in these four weeks, which is its largest growth spurt in the entire 9 months. so i'm hoping that's what it is because otherwise i am just gaining like a mad women. and i know i shouldn't be worried about the weight and i honestly think if this was a planned pregnancy i wouldn't be, i would just be excited i was getting bigger. but when you don't plan it and weren't ready for it, it can be wearing on the mind and body. but i think i am settling into the fact now that from here on out i am just going to be getting bigger and bigger. noah let me buy a bathing suit for our family reunion that we're going to in a couple of weeks and i am sooooo grateful!! i just was not feeling comfortable in my bikinis anymore!! but i bought a one piece. i went to the store expecting to buy one of those tankini things but nope, i got a one piece. first one piece i have ever bought in my life that wasn't for a swim team, but i actually like it. it's cute. or at least i hope it's cute because being in a bathing suit at all right now is a bit of a humbling experience. so yeah, just getting huger and humbler by the minute!!

we only have to wait another week and a half to find out the sex of the baby!! i am soooo excited!! i cannot wait. i really didn't want to know at the beginning, but now that i have known for the past several months that we are going to find out, i am really wanting to know. i do all those tests online that tell whether you're having a boy or girl (based on old wives' tales) and i always get a boy but i don't believe in those old wives' tales?? it's just fun to do them and get what you hope for even if you don't think they're true!! i am hoping it's a boy, not that i would be disappointed in a girl, i just want a boy first so i can know that they will protect the little girl we will eventually have. but yeah, i am carrying low, my urine is bright yellow and has been since we got pregnant (which is a weird one, but it's on every test as being an indicator of having a boy), my boobs have gotten A LOT bigger (not that i needed or wanted them to), and my hair has gotten flatter instead of fuller. who knows though??

all i know is that my uterus is now the size of a cantaloupe (well a little bigger than that) and it pushes on every vital organ i have!! i can barely eat a meal without feeling like i am going to throw up from all the pressure the uterus puts on my tummy and i seriously feel like my heart has moved up into my lower throat!! i can feel it beating every moment of the day now. i think if i was a little taller it wouldn't be such an issue yet, but i'm a tiny little person, having a cantaloupe in my belly takes up a lot of room!! but it's also really cool because i can really feel the baby kick now. before it was just kind of a feeling of movement (people describe it as butterflies but to me it felt more like popcorn popping my lower abdomen) and honestly it wasn't very often (i've been scared a couple of times that the baby was going to be dead because i couldn't feel it!! i know i'm a horrible mother already!!) but now it is very distinct kicks. they don't happen that often and honestly most of the time me or noah force it to kick (we suck as parents!! we push it around with our hands until it gets so annoyed with us it kicks me!! at least it helps assure me it hasn't died....) but this morning i was just sitting having just eaten a bowl of raisin bran and the baby kicked me really hard!! i can't wait until it actually happens consistently. although i'm sure i'm going to regret ever feeling this way once it's big enough to bruise my ribs. i just wish noah could feel it now. i know a lot of women think it's special the few weeks only they can feel it, but i just want noah to be a part of it. i feel like the dad just gets to hear about everything but doesn't get to experience that much. that's why i agreed to finding out the sex, i want noah to have things that he can be involved in too and that is one of those things. but yeah, i thought he would be able to feel it kick now because if i put my hand where it is kicking i can feel it, but he can't. we think i can feel it from the outside because i know it's happening on the inside, but he doesn't so it's harder for him to tell. well, soon enough i guess??

well, we're going out to dinner and i should really be getting read or we're going to be late. i'll write again next week!! and soon we will all know the sex of the baby!! woooo whooo!!!!

(Moved over from previous blog site, date written June 29, 2007)

So we just got back from Live Free or Die Hard. . . .It was good. If you like die hard movies, you'll like this one. entertaining. yep. . . .but yeah, i'm eighteen weeks today. somehow that makes me in my fifth month of pregnancy, although i don't really get how?? but yeah, woooo whoooo, soon i'll be half way done!! i don't have much new to tell this week. had my first craving-which was REALLY weird. i craved a McDonald's cheese burger????!!!! who craves that?? i don't have any idea why i craved it, but it was basically unbearable. i finally gave in and got one, but i don't even really like them?? i think they look gross, let alone how they smell. . . .but yep. mcdonald's cheese burger. . . .yuck. . . .

actually food has been the most difficult part for me lately. i've been able to start working out more again, as i'm getting more and more energy back and although my job is basically a daily workout with all the baseball, volleyball, swimming, walking and child carrying i do, it's nice to be back in a gym. but the food is hard to control for me. like eating healthy isn't the hardest thing, but knowing what to eat and in what portions is. it's great being married to noah because he's such an amazing cook and he can make pretty much any crap i'm craving healthy (save maybe the mcdonald's cheese burger, but i don't think i'll be craving that again anytime soon. . . .) but allll i want to eat is starches. they make me feel sooooo much better in terms of any sickness i have during the day plus i have had so many more food aversions than i have cravings since i got pregnant and starches are so plain i don't have any really bad aversions to them. but the thing is the baby has come up far enough now (i'm only 5'3" so it doesn't take much for my uterus to be taking up half my tummy) that eating in large amounts or things that are starchy is getting really hard because it hurts my stomach to expand that much. who knows?? maybe this is normal?? i have no idea. but yeah, so i went and bought a pregnancy book yesterday for nutrition and i'm gonna read that. well, hopefully i'll read it. we've been give like a dozen pregnancy books at this point and read none of them, sooo yeah. i'll just have to motivate myself!!

also, i think i may have gained some more weight, which would make my doctors happy!! but it is really hard for me. like i keep telling noah i can't imagine being any bigger and we just laugh because i know i have soooo much more to go and am going to get sooooo much bigger, but seriously, I already feel HUGE!! it's weird to have to be focused on gaining weight when most of my life has been focused on keeping it off, but i was told i really needed to gain by the next appointment or we'd have issues, so i am hoping that i am actually gaining weight and not just getting bigger. regardless, i'm pretty sure i'll still be below what they want me to be, but maybe i'll just be a late gainer?? the baby is on target, so that's all that matters to me.

i haven't actually really felt the baby move this week, which always freaks me out because it makes me scared that it's like dead and we won't know until the ultrasound on the 17th....that would suck!! who knows?? maybe they're just being less active than usual since i've been feeling under the weather. oh yeah, and we started registering today at babies 'r' us. it's kind of funny because me and noah both could care less about pretty much everything, so we're both like "ahh, you like this??". . ."i don't know, sure" and that is pretty much how we do registering. at least i found a car seat and stroller i like that is neutral enough that it should work for future kids despite the sex they are. noah was really cute while we were there because he was just wanting to register for all the toys. he was like "is this young enough for it??" "how about this??" and he has been dead set on getting those "baby on board" signs so he searched the whole store for them before he would let us leave so he could get one. he's a very good husband and i can already tell he's gonna be a very sweet father.

but yeah, that is about all i have to report this week. plus i have some kind of a cold and have been feeling crappy for the past four days, so i think i'm gonna turn in early since i don't have school tomorrow for once and can get a TOOOOOONNNN of sleep. well, enjoy the pictures of my ever expanding belly. . . . .see you next week